Where Did I Go?

Wow, Not sure what to even write other than I am at an angry stage with this disease.  I am tired of feeling sick all of the time.  I miss being a good wife and mom.  I miss teaching my ESL kids and I really just miss the person that use to laugh and smile!   Where did I Go?  Will I ever come back?  This round of iv antibiotics is rough and the orals that go along with it are even rougher. I can't believe that this is my life, I keep thinking I am going to wake up from this horrible nightmare and be back in Reno doing what I do best.  Teaching, loving, smiling, believing